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Key to my Heart

by Gypsypashn

Key to my Heart

It's crafted from fine silver

Simple and heart shaped

Only one portal it will open

Just one.. a lover's gate

My heart I fashioned a diary

Each day words I write so true

They speak of lasting love

Feelings I have for you

I send today this marker

This key...your love to spark

With hopes you'll come unlock

What lies written and

Waiting in my heart

Tuesday (January 27):

2dae I was like reali quiet… cos I slept reali late… n my head was throbbing like hell… n all I wanted 2 do was 2 either hit my head in2 d wall or 2 go 2 sleep… but I tink I chose d latter… haha… n I felt like veri heaty… haiz… wat did d doc told me… oh yeah… drink more water… rite… erm… yeah… sure… I wld… ya rite… haha… but wen I checked my body temp… its not fever hi or anyting… its 36.7 degrees Celsius… geez… newayz… so wat else happened 2dae… erm… lets go frm d beginning eh… I wen 2 skool… duh… n of course… s always… Tuesdays r wat I wld call… “THE LECTURE MARATHON DAY!!!”… haha… y I call dat… well… lets c… I hv 2 lectures in d same theatre… for 4 whole hours... d first one was cma… n 2dae not many pple came 4 d lecture… I was like damn shock wen I came in2 d lecture theatre 2 find d lecture empty… wif onli d lecturer… I tot I was like early… but den again… wen I look @ d time… it was exactly 9 in d morning… so I guess my onli theory iz dat… not many pple like cma after all… I hv 2 agree… cos it can kinda get a lil boring… but I wen newayz… if not… I can honestly tell u dat I will hv n extremely blur moment wen I took out d textbk n tried 2 do d tutorial… so d lecturer was another lecturer… it was a female lecturer… whos kinda long-winded… haiz… dis is d whole thing abt a lecture wif not many pple attending… u can get distracted easily… haha… well… I didn’t… until vincey came in dat is… haha… he looked reali tired… honestly… y… well… lets c… I wen on d net yesterday @ 1 in d morning… ok… so technically… its not yesterdae… but who cares… haha… newayz… yup… I wen in n saw him online… so… I guess he slept late… n he looks kinda tired… my heart wen out 2 him… n I don’t reali noe if he pays attention or not… but I m definitely 99.9% sure dat hes not by d look of it… hehe… s if I do… hahahahaha… so newayz… after cma was ief… n I was like so excited wen I saw a diff lecturer came in cos in my mind I was like… yes… its not koh poh tee… I was not d onli one I can tell u dat… it goes 2 my classmates s well… esp vincey, Solomon, n wee kiong… cos dis 3 guys r d ones dat koh poh tee will call out… so we were kinda excited… until we found out dat d other lecturer… who is ms wong or izzit ms ong… wateva… so newayz… its until we found out dat d other lecturer is juz dere 2 ask us 2 do a survey… haiz… u shld hv look @ d disappointed look on our faces… haiz… den after dat d cma lecturer gave a comment n asked whether d other students who came in r oso d ones who hv 2 come 4 cma… cos I can tell u… after d end of cma lecture all d other students came in… n d theatre was full… u shld hv imagined d look on d cma lecturer face… haha… so like I hv said earlier… koh poh tee s always call out vincey (once), wee kiong (once or twice), Solomon (lots of time), n sumon (once)… poor dem… I reali pity dem since koh poh tee can remember their names… haiz… after dat we had 2 hrs break b4 we had hrm… den during class… I can honestly tell u dat… vincey’s paying attention in class… haha… hes been answering qns like lots of times… den s always… wen he saw me wif d new paper… he asked 4 it… but I kinda teased him n asked “wat muz u say first?”… n he said “thank u”… veri cute… haha… den d whole ting was he didn’t read it… he kept under d desk… haiz… dat guy is 1 of a kind… den @ d end of d class… I approached him 2 ask him which qn 4 d ief tutorial is he doing… den he gave me dis blur look… first he said… tutorial 3… den I said “I tot u r doing d 1995 – 1999 tutorial”… den he was like ya… n I was like… “tutorial 3 is d tariff one”… n he said ya… n den he was like… “eh… wait… I check first…” wen I was abt 2 hit him wif d new paper… he cringed… I was like… sheesh… so cute… n bcos both of us r talking in d middle of nowhere n my frens were stuck behind us trying 2 get out… haha… wee kiong was like… “eh… talk outside leh…” n we walked out… n I was practically nagging @ vincey… n I told him… he was doing d 1995 – 1999 tutorial… n he was like ya lah… I was like sheesh… so blur… can still say don’t noe… haiz… den I approached shuting n she was kinda nervous wen I told her dat she has 2 do one of d qns 4 ief tml… n we had dis idea of hving 2 pple presenting… instead of 1… tho we noe dat dat wldnt work wif koh poh tee… haiz… we can juz dream… den my other frens (u noe who u r)… left me behind wif vincey… (if u r reading dis rashidah… thnx… owe u 1… haha)… den we talked abt dis young soccer player who suddenly died on d field… how scary it was… I mean… 1 min he was smiling n laughing 2 d referee… n 1 minute he fell back n died… juz like dat… so scary… den I gave him d new paper… cos I was showing him 1 article abt our fave team… lfc… duh… den I was handing d new paper wen our hands brushed against each other… kinda nice… hehe… den my frens stopped near d canteen so I came up 2 dem… vincey was still wif my new paper in his hand n he asked me whether I was 2 go home cos d new paper is still wif him… den my fren ting ting (owe her 1 too… haha)… told me 2 juz go home wif him… so my heart was like ok… den I walked off wif him… n on d way… he saw his fren n he didn’t stop n chat wif him… kinda weird 2 tink dat I did observe him b4 (btw… I onli observe dose I wan 2 observe… haha)… n wen he saw his frens I can honestly say dat he wld stop 4 a while n chat wif dem… but he didn’t dat time n he juz said hi n walked along wif me… meanwhile… Solomon n wee kiong was going 2 d males n vincey realizing dat told dem dat hes going off wif me 1st… n Solomon was like nodding n waved gdbye… in my heart I was like… shit… I tink Solomon knew dat I like vincey… I m in a total deep shit… so newayz… I walked 2 d bus stop wif him… n he was telling me how scary it is 2 juz die on d pitch like dat… n I agreed… den I told him abt my daddy’s accident while playing soccer… n btw… hes d 1 n onli guy who noes abt dis… oh well… hes special 2 me newayz… haha… so he laughed wen I told him dat my daddy got injured a few days b4 his engagement 2 my mom… haha… den I said abt how I wanna b like my daddy soccer-wise… a gd goalkeeper… n he brought up d sentosa subject… he seemed 2 remember abt dat dae a lot… vividly I muz say… cos he told me “ya sure… u can 1… u defend wif ur head…” n he laughed n laughed… n I hit him wif my new paper… I can honestly tell u dat my new paper was torn n crumpled all bcos I hit him a lot of times wif it… haha… den his bus came n it was full… n i asked him… since he took bus 74 where does he drop… n he said hougang… I was like… far sia… den he nodded… den he asked me wat bus I was taking… I said any bus dats yellow… hehe… n den wen my bus came… I said gdbye… n dis is d part dat I hate a lot… his expression juz changed so quickly… n he was like “so fast u go already…” n I said “ya… bye”… I was trying 2 put on a smiley face even tho my heart was like… “shit… y muz he give me dat look... nw I don’t feel like going home…” haiz… den wen I was @ home watching d news… it was showing zidane in court… n d newscaster was saying dat if zidane n dis other player is found guilty dey wld b jailed or sumting… n I quickly smsed vincey abt it cos earlier we were talking abt zidane n he said dat zidane admitted on taking drugs n I chided him… n he replied saying “c… I told u u don’t believe me… my general knowledge veri gd one…” … so I replied back saying “since u r so gd wif ur gen knowledge… make sure tml u can ans koh poh tee qns…”… haha… serve him rite 4 saying dat… haha…

Wednesday (January 28):

He luvs me… he luvs me not… he luvs me… he luvs me not… he luvs me… he luvs me not… I can go on n on n on… cos juz nw… during ief… vincey volunteered himself 2 ans koh poh tee qns… cos I asked him 2… haha… den wen he ans n ans… I was helping him along n everyting… cos he was sitting rite behind me… den after dat… koh poh tee asked him 2 choose 1 person frm d class… during dat time… I was a bit blur… cos she was quite long-winded wen she asked vincey 2 choose sum1… she was saying like… don’t ask u wan or not… juz say d person’s name… n straight away… he said siti… I was like… shit… n koh poh tee juz looked @ me n said “luv u or hate u… I don’t noe…” I was like… gd job vincey… he didn’t even look ard n c who he wans 2 choose… he juz straight away say my name… I was wondering if he had my name in his mind… cos if he did… its kinda like a gd news 4 me… haha… dat means he was tinking of me mah… haha… but fat hope lah… I tink he juz wan 2 sabo me… sheesh… den during d lesson… I can still continuously turn over 2 him n helped him n talked 2 him… hehe… hes actually 1 heck of a smart guy… I can honestly say… he can ans most of d qns dat was asked… so hes smart… newayz… after class I smsed him n said… thnx 4 calling my name juz nw… idiot… u hate me so much izzit…” he didn’t reply… so sad… dat means he hates me… its either dat or… s my best fren said… it can b dat he likes me… I was like… ok… dat was like fat hope s well… sheesh… I don’t even hv confidence in myself… haiz…

Thursday (January 29):

2dae not much reali… I wen 2 my psychology class… n it was damn cold cos it was raining outside n I was wearing my shorts… n I didn’t bring my sweater along… so I was practically freezing… n 2dae 4 psychology class… my classmates had 2 present 4 one of d topics abt social cognition… n their explanation was so messy dat I found myself asking so many qns… cos I don’t understand wat dey r trying 2 say… its not dat I m evil or anyting… I reali don’t understand… I veri much wan 2 help dem… cos dey look so helpless wen dey tried 2 explain 2 d class wat dey r trying 2 say… haiz… n in d end… d tutor kinda commented dat my grp consisting me, maz n waheeda actually asked qns dat zoomed straight in2 d presentation… which is gd… n I was so proud of my grp… cant help it dat 1 of my ambition is 2 b a psychology n I noe dat psychologists asked lots of qns… haha… next was French class… I learnt how 2 say I luv u in French… which is je t’aime… hehe… erm… I wld luv 2 say dat 2 vincey… but I do noe dat he wld noe wat I m saying… so… 4get it… haha… after dat I met rashidah n took my blaw book… haiz… I hadn’t do my blaw… haha… den wen I reached home… I read d tutorials n tried 2 do it… which is a success… cos I understand d qns n cld answer it… hehe… den after dat I wen on d net 2 check out wat company my grp can do 4 d fmgt project… cos I hv 2 send vincey d company by 9… n by 8.30 still haven decide… so I smsed him n asked wat his grp is doing… den he said quick cut… den he said I muz give him d name of d company… den I said I don’t noe wat company 2 do… n I ask him how he was going 2 find d cash budget 4 dat company n he said dat his grp is going 2 smoke bomb… haiz… n in d end… after getting ans frm rashidah n aidi… dose 2 gals dat r sensible ones… not dat d rest aren’t… but I noe d rest r agreeable 2 anyting dese 2 gals decide… which is true cos wen I smsed ting ting… she was like… u gurls decide… I m agreeable… haiz… so after discussing wif d two… we decided on timberland company… den I smsed vincey wif a lil tease… “hello handsome boy…. Frm jolie fille (pretty gal)…” haha… who told him 2 call himself handsome boy… nw I m stuck 2 teasing him wif dat name… haha…

Friday (January 30):

He luvs me… he luvs me not… he luvs me… he luvs me not… haiz… 2dae my class started @ 8.30 cos we had 2 blaw tutorials in2 one… so damn long sia… during d break… me n my frens were chatting outside d class n I cracked up wen wee kiong kinda get excited wen he was talking abt u-turns… n he was showing us d u-turn on d steering wheel thingy… n he was holding his wallet n ting ting was rite in front of him… wen he suddenly hit ting ting’s face… n every1 juz cracked up… I was laughing non-stop… I was like “relax relax…” n rashidah made a joke dat he u-turn n suddenly c eh wheres d steering wheel cos d steering wheel juz flew off… I cldnt imagine… I juz laughed n laughed… it was so funny… n den me n vincey were talking abt Liverpool n how deres another soccer team called Liverpool in Uruguay… den he was talking abt how uruguay’s Liverpool logo is not s nice s england’s Liverpool… n den I remembered my Liverpool drawing so I told him abt it… den he was like surprised cos he said d Liverpool logo was difficult… so i wen in2 d class took d drawing n wen out back n gave it 2 him… n he was like woah… cos it was near perfect… haha… n I expected him 2 give it back 2 me… but he didn’t… he kept it… sheesh… den after dat was fmgt lecture… I got bitten by dis stupid bug on my tummy… n my tummy kinda got red n sore… n it was so piercingly painful… so I wen in2 d lecture put my bag n wen out back… wen I was walking out… vincey was walking in2 d male rm… n he looked @ me n gave me dat look n said “wanna come in?” I gave him a small smile cos my tummy is reali painful liao… but if I m not in pain… I wld hv came up 2 him… n teased him… n said… “sure… lets go in…” haha… but I didn’t… haiz… so after I put sum water on my tummy 2 make it cool down… I wen back in2 d lecture theatre n asked him 4 d drawing n he told me he wld give it 2 me later… n after dat… during d break… he gave me a paper 2 write my grp members n d project company… I was writing it down… n he was so close 2 me dat I was so afraid 2 turn n face him cos I mite juz kiss him 4 all I noe… hehe… although dat wld b a gd idea… hehe… stop it siti… hehe… den he was teasing me… AGAIN… haiz… he told me 2 write faster lah… den he said I write in pencil he wld rub it away lah… haiz… he always do dis… y me… cant he tease sumbody else… sheesh… den @ d end of d lecture… I wen out… den we were waiting 4 sumon who was still inside d theatre discussing on wat company 2 do cos she haven decide yet… so we waited… n I was talking 2 solomon’s gf… hehe… we were kinda close after d sentosa trip… den after sumon wen out… I was still talking 2 her… den I saw wee kiong n Solomon coming out of d theatre… n den came vincey… I was looking @ their direction n vincey’s on mine… wen vincey saw me… he told Solomon he’ll b waiting 4 dem wif me cos Solomon n wee kiong was going 2 d males… den I saw vincey wif d paper dat has d project list… he was folding it but wen he saw me… he opened it up again… took my folder n put it in… I was like “wat r u doing?” n he was like… “I lazy 2 take out my folder so u take 4 me first lah…” in my heart I was like… “erm… deres other frens of his whom he can asked 2 take 4 him 1st but y me… he trusted me so much…” sheesh… den I asked him 4 my drawing… den he said he kept it 1st cos he wans 2 master how 2 draw d Liverpool logo den he gave back 2 me… den I said don’t wan… I told him I wld draw 4 him… but no… he insists on keeping it… den I wanted 2 hit his back… but he kinda defend it wif his hand so I ended up hitting n @ d same time grabbing his hand… n boy… my hand is painful… I was like “ouch… my hand…” den he said “ya lah… of course…” I was like sheesh dis guy… den wen I wan 2 catch up wif my frens who again… left me behind wif vincey (thnx again rashidah…) I saw his expression changes again… haiz… den I said gdbye… haiz… he luvs me or not… I don’t noe… hes giving me signs… but I don’t noe wat 2 believe… @ d end of all dis… I cld onli say 1 ting… I tink Solomon noes abt my liking 4 his fren vincey… cos he seemed 2 leave me n vincey alone wen we were talking… n dat goes 2 show during d sentosa trip… n even recently… n even juz nw in d canteen wen deres a long queue n Solomon saw me lining up @ d back n asked vincey 2 buy sumting 4 me… haiz… I was like… I tink Solomon noes… n ting ting told me dat if Solomon noes den deres a big chance dat vincey noes s well… but my best fren told me dat she didn’t tink dat Solomon is d kind of guy who wld tell vincey… but I don’t noe u noe… I reali don’t noe wat 2 believe anymore…

Princess Siti Grint is feeling obsessed on 2004-01-31 at 11:49 p.m.

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