Children love to be alone because alone is where they know themselves, and where they dream.

“Children love to be alone because alone is where they know themselves, and where they dream.”

Saturday (November 29):

2dae, I basically did nothing… other den spending most of my time designing a website… on myself! Hehe… dis way… I can oso learn more abt html codes… erm… who says wen u r not in skool u r not learning eh? U learn too… like moi… haha… but u hv 2 take ur own initiative lah… so newayz… I was hooked in front of d laptop most of d time… n den my cuzzind visited my house… 1 of my cuzzins son iz so cute… he’s so clever… n persistent… I can honestly say dat once he grows up… he will b a go-getter n neva gives up n can take risk howeva dangerous it may b… he can oso b a veri successful bizman… ok… ok… y do I say dat… once his mind kinda set on 1 ting… he wld go 4 it no matter how many times I, his mom, his daddy, my mom, my dad say… he was looking @ my glass cabinet… n in b/w d 2 glass doors deres a gap… u noe wat he did? He put his thumb in b/w d gap n tried 2 push it open… no matter how many times we told him “No!” he still walked 2wards it n tried 2 open d door… haiz… n wen I said “Kiss bear bear” he kissed my teddy… wen I said “Hug bear bear” he hugged my teddy… so cute… den my other grp of cuzzins came… dey stayed till 12 midnite… I was so sleepy… I felt like sleeping rite in front of dem… YAWN!!!

Sunday (November 30):

2dae… I went out wif my family n my aunt’s family n my cuzzin’s fiancé… my cuzzin’s fiancé drove d lorry like… I don’t noe… its like s if hes ‘flying’… it was so fast… its like hes riding d motorbike instead of a lorry wif passengers inside… we cld go frm bedok 2 cck in less den half n hour flat… if u don’t call it fast… I don’t noe wat u call it… bedok 2 cck iz usually n hr ride… not less den half n hr… newayz… we wen frm house 2 house… den we wen 2 my mom’s cuzzin’s house… shes reali old already… den she juz had her operation n everyting… usually shes big size… wen I saw her… she was so thin… den she was screaming in pain… she felt pain all over her body… den after dat we wen 2 another of my mom’s cuzzin’s house… while we were finding her house @ admiralty rd… which iz btw veri long… we went round n round still cannot find… den my mom got a call frm her cuzzin’s daughter (d house we wan 2 go 2)… saying dat my mom’s cuzzin (d 1 who was reali sick)… ‘nazak’… which iz in English… had trouble breathing (sign b4 dying)… den we were all shocked… cos we were like… she cld still recognize all of us… unlike my late grandma… who cldnt recognize anybody n saw her mom, her late sis b4 she passed away… den we continued wif our journey 2 other places… den wen we arrived @ my other relative’s house (my mom’s cuzzins oso)… we were juz sitting down talking abt her… den my mom got n sms by my mom’s cuzzin’s daughter dat my mom’s cuzzin had passed away… we were reali shocked… we had juz asked 4 forgiveness a few hrs ago n she juz passed away… n my mom came 2 d conclusion dat probably God wans my late mom’s cuzzin 2 c all her loved ones b4 she go… rest in peace Wak Lolok…

Monday (December 1):

Yes… d 1st dae of a whole new mth… n I was reali bored cos I didn’t do anyting @ work 2dae… sob sob… so I tried 2 make myself useful by helping my fren 2 do d calendar 4 her dept… I m n ‘expert’ on dat 1… I did it 4 my dept s well… hehe… so basically nothing 2 talk here… haha… c ya tml… haha…

Tuesday (December 2):

2dae I went 2 tanglin mall… 4 another stock display décor… honestly… doin d décor 4 tanglin mall’s ‘market place’ – a name of d supermkt btw… was veri limited… its hard 2 decorate d display wen d store manager didn’t give a special display area 4 us… so we had 2 resort in decorating d shelf 4 coke products… haiz… but den again… d supermkt iz reali veri ang moh… turn left, turn right, turn behind, look in front all ang moh… but I saw a lot of cute babies too… dat was wen I wish I had a camera phone… cos den I can take their pix… dey r reali so cute… 1 of dem… a baby boy… iz so chubby… so cute… haiz… but other den cute small babies… I saw cute ‘big’ babies… u noe wat I mean… I mean cute guys… haiz… dey r so cute… sum of dem… haha… nw… I noe where 2 go wen I wan 2 ‘wash my eyes’… u noe… look @ cute guys… haha…

Wednesday (December 3):

2 dae I had 2 go 2 two shopping malls… paragon n taka… wah… keep on crossing frm 1 place 2 another… so tiring… but @ least… both d décor r veri nice… paragon iz more icy… s in d décor has snow theme… veri nice… esp wen I had 2 sprinkle dis glittering strings dat iz transparent… dey r veri beautiful… I got 2 b messy 4 a while… I mean… juz sprinkle 2 glittering thingy all over d green ‘grass’… gd rite… den after dat taka has a ribbon theme 4 its décor… veri nice… veri red n veri luscious… veri grand kind of feeling wen u look @ it… lots of ribbons all over d place… veri nice lah… so if u go 2 any of d 2 places n c d décor 4 coca-cola display… remember dat I m a part of it… haha…

Thursday (December 4):

I PASSED!!! Woo hoo!!! I PASSED!!! I m so happy dat I passed… its not dat my results r reali gd… a B 4 mkting… 3 Cs 4 om, aaa, n ec… which iz a huge shock 4 me… cos I flunked on my exams… n I noe I flunked on my exams… so a C 4 dese 3 modules r a huge shock… n still a shock 4 2 daes 2 come… haha… 2 C+ 4 ep n ecd… n another shocker of d dae… a distinction 4 pqs… a distinction 4 pqs… haha… wat a funny ting… mayb bcos being a module rep 4 d module reali helps… haha… oh n a full mark 4 one of d tests… hehe… I panicked wen by d time 10 am has arrived… deres no sms watsoeva on my results… until 11.20 wen I received it… but I was busy doing d display in great world city dat I don’t realize dat I had received d msg until 12 noon… haha… n I was jumping 4 joy in d middle of nowhere… so paiseh… haha… newayz… ya… 2 dae I wen 2 great world city… neva been dere b4 n hv absolutely no idea how 2 go dere… haha… so me n my fren took a taxi frm ck tangs… luckily it was quite near so we spent onli $3.10 on d fare… haha… but we were half n hr late… but we finished it early @ 2… so me n my fren wen window shopping (like s if we didn’t 4 yesterday… we did d same ting yesterdae… hehe…) since we had nothing 2 do @ office so we told my boss dat we go ‘jalan jalan’ (loosely translated 2 walk walk)… n she said can cos she noes dat I don’t hv anytng 2 do @ d office neway… haha… so me n my fren wen 2 ck tangs 2 c my cuzzin… shes a sales promoter @ d luggage section on d 3rd floor… n I saw dis reali pink luggage… veri legally blonde… if u buy d whole set of pink luggage… pple will tink dat u r d REAL legally blonde… haha… den I saw dis reali chic laptop bag… so nice… but I noe dat I hv 2 b reali rich 2 buy d bag… haha… but its ok since dey hv 50% discount… I m not kidding on d 50% discount thingy… newayz… den my cuzzin gave me dis booklet 4 me 2 check out d clothes… its island shop… I don’t noe d shop dat much n neither does my fren… so my cuzzin told me 2 check out d prices… so me n my fren checked it out n honestly saying… it iz going 2 b my fave shop… d clothes r so nice… n most importantly… AFFORDABLE… it ranges frm 33 bucks… n dat iz like veri affordable… n d blouse iz nice… juz dat my dad will kill me if I wear such a low cut blouse… haha… to 99 bucks… n d blouse iz veri veri nice… I tink its not surprising dat d blouse iz 99 bucks… its made of silk… den I found a blouse dat I like… n I m going 2 buy it… oh wait… not me… my cuzzin iz going 2 buy 4 me… hehe… so nice of her… bcos if she buy it she will get a staff discount… ah… we r going shopping I tink late dis mth… so gd rite… den we wen out of tangs 2 taka… n dere in projectionshop I saw a skirt dat I m so in luv wif… but its so ex… well… not reali but it costs 65 bucks… u can get d same pattern… even nicer @ far east @ a lower price… haiz… but I tink I check out d 1 @ far east first b4 I buy… hehe… I m so going on a shopping spree dis mth… I m going 2 buy a new hp… my lfc jersey (haiz… hv 2 wait until nw den I got a permission 2 buy it… mom… mom… wat can I say abt her… oh wait… I noe… fickle-minded)… oh… btw… LIVERPOOL LOST TO BOLTON?! LIVERPOOL LOST TO BOLTON?! Wat d hell iz happening 2 my fave team?! Wat r dey doing? Kicking balls or kicking airball… AAAAARRRRRGGGHHH!!! But dey surprisingly hold 61% of d possession of d ball… 61% of d ball n dey still lost… WASSUP WIF DAT?! BUCK UP U GUYS!!! WE HAVE TO GET TO D TOP FOUR AND KICK D BUTTS OFF DOSE EXTRAS (like Newcastle? Haha…)… ok… back 2 d real topic here… I oso wan a new haircut… n a blouse n a skirt… aargh… I neva spend so much on 1 mth b4… but… oh well… deres always a 1st to everyting… haha… tml I m going 2 bedok 4 sum display… haiz… I had 2 go all d way 2 d east side 2 do a display… great… hopefully its cancelled or sumting… I m so damn tired… its fun doing all dis stuff but its so tiring @ d same time… haiz… c ya…

Friday (December 5):

2dae I hv a fight wif my mom… erm… like s if dats a 1st… dis time its 4 a petty stuff… whether d cheque I got 4 my pay iz a cash cheque or a cross cheque… I trust my fren wen she said it’s a cross cheque… but I don’t care… @ least I got my pay here… I juz wan 2 bank dat ting in so dat wen I wan 2 buy my hp… I will juz draw it out rite… don’t hv 2 draw it out so early wat… den she told me 2 ask d accountant… s if I m so free 2 ask d accountant cos u c… wen I was talking 2 her I was not doing anyting but actually I was assigned 2 do dis lucky draw thingy n me n my fren took turn in front of d computer 2 type all d winners’ names n addresses… n we did it until d end of our work time… den she asked me 2 ask… so I was like wats d fuss abt… y she needs d money so fast… den she said aiyah… no need 2 b so noisy… n I was like… whos making a fuss here… den she was like u don’t talk back 2 me… dis iz still hari raya… n den after dat she said make it ez ask ur dad 2 bank in… I juz kept quiet… I don’t wan 2 say anyting… den wen I reached d void deck of my apt… I saw my dad… den he told me dat my mom told him wat happened… den he asked me whether it’s a cross cheque or a cash cheque… den I said wats d diff… u still can bank in rite… even if I m a posb customer… I can still bank in wat… den I told him dat my fren said dat it’s a cross cheque… den after dat he told me 2 tell it 2 my mom… den I was like I said already wat… den he told me 2 say it in a nicer way… n I was like… dats nice wat… how nice she wans me 2 b… I already said it… y cant she juz leave it 2 dat… y muz she makes a fuss out of a small lil ting… den after dat I came home den straight away wen 2 d bathrm n cried… I don’t noe y my mom always make me d bad gurl… haiz… wen I came out of d bathrm she was crying n saying d same old ting… wat happen wen shes gone cos nw she has diabetes… I already do dis 2 her… n she was crying n everyting… I was like… @ least she complained 2 my dad… her husband… I cried in d bathrm wif nobody comforting me… did she eva noe how stress I was s her daughter… once she said dat wen I do sumting I didn’t tink of her n my dad… if I didn’t tink of my mom n dad… I wld kill myself d 1st time I tot of it… I wld drop out of skool… I wld talk back n scolded her upside down… I wld run away frm home long time ago… I wld not take business studies course cos my interest iz on mass communication… I wld b taking dat course even tho I noe dat once I got d diploma my werk wont b stable s it iz hard 2 get in2 d media industry… I wld b taking law n mgt in temasek without tinking of my transport cost… I took business studies even tho I had no interest watsoeva in business cos I noe dat @ d veri least I will hv a stable job after my diploma n I cld take care of my family… if I didn’t care abt her n my dad… y wld I prioritise my family n studies first… b4 myself… y wld I pray 4 my parents health not even praying 4 my own… y wld I ask god 2 protect my parents against devils, natural disasters, wars n all d bad lucks in dis world n after dat… without even caring 2 pray 4 protection on myself… I wld rather hv me dying in natural disasters, wars n all dose stuff n c my parents live in dis world n live their life 2 d fullest… y wld I do all dat… y… cos I noe dat dey hv done a lot 4 me… n d onli ting I cld repay them iz dis… Ive been obeying her all dese yrs… I don’t care abt me not getting 2 go out much… s much s my frens… but y cant she @ d veri least stop being petty n try 2 pick a fight wif me… y cant she give me d freedom even 2 choose a man whom I wan 2 live wif 4 d rest of my life n b hapi wif him… but I don’t care u noe… I wld rather b wif sum1 whom I don’t luv n c my mom hapi… I don’t care abt my happiness… I juz wan my mom 2 b hapi… haiz… nothing dat I said here will change anyting… I noe… I juz hv 2 live wif it… on a lighter note howeva… my webbie iz almost finishing… I m juz linking d pix pgs which r so complicated cos sumtimes I messed up d links… hehe… so I guess it wld b ready soon… I don’t noe how soon tho… but I tink its soon enuf… haha…

Princess Siti Grint is feeling obsessed on 2003-12-05 at 11:42 p.m.

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